God Dammit

I told Katty I am transgendered...

MSN conversation:

Izzy: .... do you want to know?
Katty: Tell me
Izzy: well.... umm.... in um.. secret.. well, im transgendered
Katty: Really?
Izzy: :# yes
Katty: That's crazy cool (L)(L)(L)
Izzy: ... really?
Katty: Yes
Izzy::D yey~ i was worried you would hate me
Katty: Me? Of all people..?
Izzy: well.... i was being paranoid...
Katty: True XD
Izzy: so... you don't mind?
Katty: No...I think it's really, really cool :P
Izzy: yey~ although, i tell you, binding is a bitch XD
Katty: XDD
Izzy: I can't tell you how much I love you right now
Katty: (L)(L)(L)

So yeah... It went well.

College today, start at 1.15. I can't be bothered... too tired.

Mum still won't shut up about the ring. She has been going on about it for months.

Diary of a mad woman

My mum yelled at me for making myself bleed... I can't take that sort of thing, I just can't. I went into the garden, to the bird table, and got some bird seed in my hand. I tempted an adorable small bird from the tree...

I grabbed the bird around the neck, and held it tightly. I slipped my hand into my pocket and pulled out my lighter... I burnt of it's feathers... then burnt it's feet and skin... It screamed so much...

Then I burnt it's eyes into mush. And I kept burning it until it stopped struggling.

My hands and arms were covered in blood when I went back inside. My mum thought I cut myself again.

<3

My dear... I love you.

I would leave my home for you, my friends and family... all for you.
I'd marry you, care for you, stay with you forever.
Live for you, die with you.

Fucking twat.

Liam, you bitch. FOR FUCK SAKE. STOP BEING LIKE THAT.
I'm going to hit you next time, I swear.

And when I see the people who have been spreading shit about Nom, heads will roll.

I am rediculously in love with Katty... I don't know why I let this happen... but, it is so worth it.
Holly fucking Jesus on a bicycle, I'm so happy.
Katty, I will see you soon. For your birthday. I promise.

And Jess, please, carry on being strong. You are doing so well, despite everything. I love you.

I'm such a whore

I had sex with a friend while high on weed, codine, heroin and ketamin.

Fuck.

I feel filthy.

Random musings....

I love Kattyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

College is awesome

I love Katty

Too much work to do

I love Katty

I need to get high

I love Katty

I feel so depressed

I love Katty

I also feel fucking horny

I love Katty

I'm way too obsessive

I love Katty

My poor dear...

I find it far too enjoyable when my muses suffer....